Sad

So today was a good day. I took the day off of work and spent it with my mom and sister and we went Christmas shopping. It was so nice to spend the day with them and just be silly. I got really sad during the day though. Usually this is my favorite time of year and I just love to take in all the lights, music and everything else that makes the holidays so cheerful. But it is different this year. Instead im sad trying to make everyone else happy. Its so hard being pulled in all directions. All I ever wanted was to be happy and be surrounded by everyone I love. I guess it just can't be that easy.